[No, he never once believed that it was easy for Gai. Shu was just telling himself a convenient lie so he could keep going like he always has.

Instead of being rational and listening to what his feelings are telling him, Shu continues to yell. He almost wants to walk up to Gai and grab him by the collar.

But instead, he actually looks at Gai. Shu wants to see Gai just how he's feeling.]

What are you going to do? Are you going to tell me I'm weak and I don't understand so I should stay home and not fight? Everything's my fault.