[She slides her hands over Gai's chest, almost feeling for a bump or a slight valley, anything that could indicate there had been some brutal injury. Nothing, he's perfect. Wonderfully perfect.]

That's from... the last time I underwent a procedure. [This hurts her to say too, because it was so violent, so frightening, she said whatever she could to try to make them stop.] It was a cable, with a pin. Meant to control my ability to open tears through... punishment, whenever I tried.

[She takes one of the hands Gai has on her waist and directs it, through much uncomfortable bending of her arm, to where it is.] It wasn't death, but I wanted to die so badly. Because I was afraid no one was going to free me.

That... was the darkest and most painful time in my life. [She bows her head, overwhelmed. But at least he's seen it now--her own relived fear and anguish. ]