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[voidseeing]

This is Gai Tsutsugami. I can't answer right now; leave a message and I'll get back to you later.

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[departing]

I want to become you.

Why can't I?

[That might have been more blunt than usual for him, but hey he's drunk.]

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[voidseeing]

[Hearing that is at once a surprise to him and not, and he can't help but think how ironic it is that now Shu is the one who wants to be like him rather than the other way around. Not that Shu remembers any of that at all.]

... you can become me any time you want.

[He knows that this Shu hasn't heard him say those words yet, but it can't hurt to say them again anyway.]

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[departing]

It's impossible for me.

After all you're someone who matters.

I'm just me. Nothing else.

[At least he's being honest. Not that he'll remember anything ever.]

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[voidseeing]

In the end, that's all you need to be.

[Because Shu had pulled through when it was needed most, not that he knows it.]

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[departing]

That can't be right.

I need to be stronger than this. I hate myself sometimes because I can't accomplish anything the way you do.

[He's being too honest. Normally he'd hide this from Gai, but nope. Not this time. Too much alcohol.]

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[voidseeing]

[Gai sets down the cloth he was using to clean up the kitchen mess and walks over to where Shu is standing in the doorway; then, without any sort of warning, he lifts his hand up to rest it on Shu's hair in an awkward sort of pat.]

There are a lot of things you can - maybe even should - hate yourself for, but that isn't one of them.

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[departing]

[ bad touch That actually surprises him. Gai what are you doing?]

Then what should I hate myself for?

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[voidseeing]

Hate yourself for your hesitation and self-doubt. It's only when you let go of those that you're able to accomplish anything.

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[departing]

But I'm not confident in anything.

What if what I do ends up affecting the lives of other people? If people die because of my mistakes I wouldn't be able to take it.

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[voidseeing]

Everything you do ends up affecting the lives of other people, whether you know it or not. It's impossible to live without influencing others and being influenced by them. That's what makes us human.

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[departing]

It's not okay if they die because of it.

That's just crazy.

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[voidseeing]

[Okay you know what lifting his hand up now and just bonking Shu on the head.]

I never said that people dying was a good thing. But if you allow that fear to paralyze you, even more people may die because of your inaction.

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[departing]

That still doesn't discount the possibility of choosing something that'll end up doing more damage.

I don't want to be responsible for it. Not when I'm not prepared to face the consequences.

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[voidseeing]

Then let me be the one to take that responsibility. I'll face all of the consequences-- that's part of what being a leader means. If you aren't ready to accept that, you aren't ready to be a leader.

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[departing]

You can't.

I won't let you do that.

[Abruptly.]

That's too many burdens for one person.

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[voidseeing]

Shu...

[For the briefest moment, he looks taken aback...]

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[voidseeing]

[... and then he just closes his eyes with a little smile.]

Yes, just like that. You're fine the way you are right now.

[departing]

[That makes him feel a little better about himself but at the same time he can't accept this.

Not being confident and being socially awkward has it's blunders. Shu dislikes those aspects of himself and he thinks for a moment that he should be better than that.

Instead of complaining he just nods.]

Gai.


What makes you say that?

[He wants to know! It would be unlike Gai to say things without a reason anyways.]

[voidseeing]

Have you forgotten? I'm from your future. I've seen what you're capable of.

[Of course he has a reason. Gai has a reason for everything he does. Now whether or not he'll explain what happened... probably not.]

[departing]

I ended up using more people, didn't I?

[First thing he assumes under the assumption he's still working for Funeral Parlor and still has the power of kings.

It's the most likely scenario he can think of without any prior knowledge asides from what Inori told him.]

[voidseeing]

Worry about that part when it happens and deal with it then. You don't have to think about it now.

[Your ten minutes of dere for the day is almost up and Gai is starting to get slightly annoyed by this string of questions, Shu.]

[departing]

What if I drew out your void?

[Still drunk: check

can't remember that he couldn't use voids here: check

cue: his hand going into gai's shirt in hopes of drawing out his heart!]

[voidseeing]

[Whoa whoa HANDS IN NEW PLACES hands do not go there, Shu, he may have had some alcohol too but he's not sure he wants he wants to be getting this friendly even so. He'll just be grabbing Shu's wrist and attempting to extract that wandering hand from his shirt.]

You can't draw out Voids here, you idiot.

[departing]

[Gai why do you have to say no to everything?]

Shut up and let me use you!

[Now trying to pin Gai to a wall so he can get a better handle on this.]

[voidseeing]

[Shu if that's what you wanted you could just ask

But he'll actually just raise an eyebrow and allow Shu to do this because he's curious as to what the heck the other thinks he's doing, plus it's kind of funny to see him being SO DETERMINED and not getting any results from it at all.]