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Appointments Post

This post can be used to thread with or get in contact with Gai at any point when he doesn't have a post up! Just comment here (please use the format [Action, June 24th], [Voice, March 5th], etc. to make it clear when the thread is taking place and what type of thread it is) for a thread with him; if it's a continuation of another thread or post, please link that so I remember the context of the thread.

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[The laugh Gai lets out now is a genuine one, more relaxed than Shu has probably ever heard from him. No, they really haven't changed much at all.]

That was the plan, except for the times where you had other ideas.

Other ideas? [He's a little curious. What kind of crazy plan did he think of? Gai's laughter catches Shu off guard.]

Come on, Gai. It wasn't that funny.

No, it wasn't funny at all when you were messing things up. But it is now that I can look back on it and know that everything worked out in the end.

[For a second it looks like Shu's going to chew Gai out on saying that he'd messed things up. Shu's aware of the fact that he isn't always on the same page as everyone else. He disliked having it pointed out by someone like Gai.]

Is that so? [He can't say he's entirely happy with how that all turned out. Everything only worked out because of Inori's sacrifice.

This whole conversation reminds Shu of the nightmares he's been having everyday. It's easy enough to tell what Shu's thinking based on his body language alone. He's clutching onto his right arm and staring off somewhere into the distance. ]

[Reading Shu is always an easy task for Gai-- the other boy is like an open book, even when he's trying desperately to conceal what he's really feeling. He could tell that Shu was upset even if he wasn't clutching his arm like that, but that action just serves as further confirmation to him.

He knows exactly what Shu is thinking about right now.]

You still don't trust me.

[It's a statement rather than a question. He doesn't need to ask, not when he already knows.]

[Shu's ashamed of himself for not trusting Gai. He would never admit to it being true. Shu always found it hard to believe Gai's words. This isn't a first.]

You wouldn't understand.

[He knows he's telling himself a lie. Shu knows for a fact the Gai standing before him's changed. He stubbornly didn't want to accept it.]

[Rather than get angry, Gai simply stares at Shu for several seconds before settling back in his chair and folding his hands behind his head in a gesture that's about as relaxed as can be.]

Try me.

Forget it.

[Shu's trying to dodge this conversation. He doesn't like talking about his feelings as he thinks they're ugly. No one should ever have to see how he really is. ]

[Still Gai remains silent, staring at Shu as if challenging him. He's not about to back down, if that's what Shu was hoping would happen.]

[Shu snaps because Gai's not giving up on this.

He can't stay as calm as Gai and starts to shout. ]

How could you possibly understand when I don't?

[He lowers his head and immediately tries to hide his emotions. Shu's trembling on the spot and he can't seem to stop.]

It's always so easy for you.

[Gai has had years and years to practice the art of staying calm under any situation; of course he's going to have the upper hand as far as that's concerned. Shu can snap at him all he wants, but Gai isn't going to take the bait and respond in kind... yet.]

You really still think it's easy for me even after what you've seen?

[The implication there being the incident that occurred before the mission at the Tsukigase Dam.]

[No, he never once believed that it was easy for Gai. Shu was just telling himself a convenient lie so he could keep going like he always has.

Instead of being rational and listening to what his feelings are telling him, Shu continues to yell. He almost wants to walk up to Gai and grab him by the collar.

But instead, he actually looks at Gai. Shu wants to see Gai just how he's feeling.]

What are you going to do? Are you going to tell me I'm weak and I don't understand so I should stay home and not fight? Everything's my fault.

I know you aren't weak, but it's true that you don't understand everything just yet. I've seen what you can become, Shu. But I could tell you everything and it wouldn't mean a thing if you still aren't able to believe in yourself.

[He's not going to look away. Will Shu be the first one to do so?]

I'm not the one who can change things here. The only one who can do that is you.

I'm weak because I've failed you. [If Gai really did do the things that he says he did, then Shu's failed. He shouldn't have had to go that far to put a stop to the Apocalypse.]

No, that's not true. I've failed everyone including myself. What's there to believe in? [Shu still doesn't see it because he lowly of himself.]

You shouldn't even be concerning yourself with me. Focus on yourself. [He's trying so hard to sound like Gai. ]

You haven't failed anyone.

[Gai isn't sure how many times he needs to say this before Shu will finally, finally get the point. There's self-hatred, yes; it's a concept he's far too familiar with himself. But he has never gotten quite this bad, not even at his lowest point. He isn't sure what else he can do to convince Shu.]

You were the one who put a stop to everything in the end, not me. If you can't believe in anything else, then at least believe in that.

[Food they ordered a while ago finally arrived! Shu seems to be entirely put off by this sudden action. He's not quite sure what to make of it and he stares at Gai all confused. ]

I'm not hungry.

[He's trying to get rid of the person handling their food. He's upset from his conversation with Gai.]

Eat it anyway.

[Because Gai knows better and he knows that Shu doesn't take care of himself unless prompted half the time.]

I'm not under your orders anymore.

[Still not listening to Gai.

Does he ever?]

[This look, Shu.

Just this look.]

[Oh...

he's not really concerned about that. He's more or less used to that expression by now.

Shu reaches over to Gai and pops his collar upright.]

[That throws Gai for enough of a loop that he actually looks startled for a moment, which in turn completely ruins his glare.

Dammit, Shu. HIS CLOTHES ARE JUST FINE, THANK YOU.]

What do you think you're doing?

[Shu pouts and frowns. He cares about how his best friend dresses up. Especially now that he's dating!]

You're not wearing it straight.

[Gai looks like he wants to pull away, punch Shu, or both... but instead he just sits there quietly and tolerates it, though he looks annoyed.]

It doesn't matter.

I can't just leave you like that.

It'll get wrinkled and don't make Elizabeth do all your laundry. [It matters to Shu apparently.]

I don't make her do any of my laundry. I take care of all of that by myself.

[Shu pls. Pls.]

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