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[The events of a week and a half ago still hang heavy over Gai's mind, something that's unusual for him. He's had his body altered without his consent, even his mind during a few experiments before, but to have his memory messed with... it's far more disconcerting than even he wants to admit. Add in everything else that happened, and you've got one broody former terrorist leader who can't even take out his unhappiness in the Battle Dome due to that damn virus.

So he opts to express himself in another way that's familiar to him, one that doesn't require any physical exertion. Something tells him that he's not the only one feeling this way right now...

When the journal entry begins, the camera is covered, obscuring its owner. All there is is a song playing over the journals, letting the music and the lyrics speak for themselves.

But that isn't all. Once it finishes playing, a written message will appear in a neat and practiced hand.]

There is a universal constant among this world and every other. The world will always force a choice on those within it: either to sit quietly by and be selected out, or to adapt and change. Those are the only two paths that can be chosen.

Our opponents made a fatal mistake when they expected us to choose the former. They underestimated our desire to survive, and that proved to be their undoing. We rose to the challenge, and we survived. And we will keep on surviving, no matter what they may try to send at us. We won't roll over and play dead the way they expect us to.

Well done, Luceti. You should be proud.

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Don't... No more of that 'who's worse' game. [She puts her fingers over Gai's mouth lightly.] We're happy now, we're honest and good now. Now is all I want to remember.

[Elizabeth's fingers fall out of Gai's hair as more dark imaginings of Gai's death come back to her. Even with his hands heavy on her waist and his neck warm under her fingers, she's scared.]

Please tell me how it happened. I've seen so many people die, Gai, I'll have nightmares that each one of them was you if you don't tell me.

[Now his eyes open again and his expression shifts to something darker and more resigned. While he may have accepted his death and may not having any regrets, thinking about it still isn't something he likes to do.]

... I was stabbed by a pair of spikes.

[There's no pretty way to say it. It hadn't been a clean death; it had been painful and bloody and god, he's sure Shu must be having nightmares about it too...]

I was trying to reach Mana, to set her soul free from the GHQ's control before they could use her to bring about the Apocalypse.

[Again, his expression softens.]

I distracted her so that Shu could finish her off.

[Elizabeth strokes Gai's shoulder with her thumb, trying to be comforting, trying to apologize for making him relive something he clearly doesn't like. She rests her forehead against his, puts her hands back in his hair, closes her eyes to picture it. And it hurts her, it does, but it's more poetic than anything she's seen before.]

And so you have no regrets. Because he did finish her off. [She assumes.]

[After a moment she opens her eyes again.] Where?

He did.

[That contact is comforting, enough so that talking about it isn't as unpleasant as he'd thought. He allows her to stroke his hair for a few moments before he lifts his hands up to catch her wrists gently, then guide her hands down to rest them over both sides of his chest, where the spikes had pierced.]

Here.

[He's not going to tell her just how big they were-- that's one detail that she doesn't need to know.]

[God...]

[Right through his lungs, maybe his heart too depending on the size. It would have hurt, maybe he had been afraid at the end, knowing he was dying and nothing would fix it. Maybe even she couldn't have saved him from that.]

[She looks down at her hands, expecting to imagine blood and holes she could see the couch through. But, thank God, it was just her hands and just his heart beating under her hands.]

[Before she really knows what she's doing, her fingers are working the buttons on Gai's shirt.]

[This... was not the reaction Gai was expecting, as his slight intake of breath will make clear. Not that he's complaining; after that rollercoaster of emotions, he's pretty sure they could both use something to get their minds off of everything that had happened. Besides, what better way to defy death than with something that's so very primal and utterly alive?

To show that he's okay with things going in this direction, he moves his hands back to her waist and leans in to kiss her, just softly at first, letting her set the pace for this.]

[She keeps it soft and light as she finishes the buttons, realizing that the tenor between them has changed. There's something twisting between them, and Elizabeth isn't fighting it. She's adding to it, in fact. But--]

I wanted to see. I just... want to see first... [She pulls open Gai's shirt and looks at where Gai placed her hands. It's just like she remembered: perfect and unscarred. Like it had never happened. For some reason, that makes it easier to set the thought aside in her head. Like a truth she knew existed, but never saw, and so it remained on the periphery of her mind.]

Did you see my back? [It was only fair, he suffered through something she asked him to relive. She would do the same for him.] When you unbuttoned my dress?

[Whether that was due to him being brought here after his death or some meddling on the part of the Malnosso, Gai doesn't know. What he does know is that he's glad there aren't any scars there, because he knows how much seeing something like every time he took his shirt off would upset her. It would be an inescapable reminder of the fact that he was dead every time they tried to get intimate. How awful would that be for her to have to face?

He doesn't move for another kiss when she pulls away. Instead, he just lets her finish the unbuttoning and open his shirt to look.]

Yeah, I did. That little scar.

[But he won't ask any questions about it. What she chooses to tell him is entirely up to her-- on her own terms, not his.]

[She slides her hands over Gai's chest, almost feeling for a bump or a slight valley, anything that could indicate there had been some brutal injury. Nothing, he's perfect. Wonderfully perfect.]

That's from... the last time I underwent a procedure. [This hurts her to say too, because it was so violent, so frightening, she said whatever she could to try to make them stop.] It was a cable, with a pin. Meant to control my ability to open tears through... punishment, whenever I tried.

[She takes one of the hands Gai has on her waist and directs it, through much uncomfortable bending of her arm, to where it is.] It wasn't death, but I wanted to die so badly. Because I was afraid no one was going to free me.

That... was the darkest and most painful time in my life. [She bows her head, overwhelmed. But at least he's seen it now--her own relived fear and anguish. ]

[Torture. Pure and simple, that's what it was. They'd tortured her, all because of an ability she didn't have any control over. And now there's a rage rising in him as she says this, her words almost getting lost in the roaring in his ears born from pure fury and a desire to hunt each and every person responsible for that down and kill them brutally.

He isn't proud of that side of him. But right now, he doesn't give a damn.

It isn't until she's moving his hand that he snaps back to reality and turns his head to look at her. And oh, does he understand that feeling.]

My stepfather deliberately injected me with an artificially-strengthened version of this virus in an attempt to make me a suitable mate for Eve. I was lucky; I survived. Most of the others didn't. They died right in front of me, and I lived in fear that I was going to be next.

[Torture is something he understands far too well.]

Gai, oh my God... [She can imagine it, and though she doesn't want to she's imagining it anyway. How? How did these things happen? How did a father figure treat his children so? How did he kill his children with one hand, and sponge away dirt and blood off of her with the other?]

[Wait, no, that wasn't right. Elizabeth is feeling too much to keep her life away from Gai's recounting. She should listen, and really hear what Gai is saying, but it's starting to crush her. Scramble what was her experience and what Gai's had been.]

[Without looking at Gai, Elizabeth lets her forehead fall against Gai's shoulder.]

You would think we were the world's last panacea and death rattling around in box, at the same time.

In the end, we weren't the Adam and Eve they wanted us to be.

[That was another similar thread between them: both of their father figures had wanted them to be the start of a new world, and neither one of them had been. They'd both rebelled and sought to choose their own futures-- futures that involved repaying what had been done to them.

Terrible, perhaps, but more than understandable. Certainly not something that either one of them would judge the other for.

Gai pulls her closer, runs his hand up and down her back in a soothing gesture. What a pair the two of them make.]

No, we never could be. We're too wild for that.

[For a few moments, Elizabeth lets herself come down from that horrible, sad place by focusing on Gai's touch. It was repetitive, and warm, and released all of the tension in her back and shoulders.]

[She slides forward on Gai's lap, all the way forward until her knees hit the back of the couch. Her nose runs a little mobius against Gai's neck. Depression is starting to take her, she wants Gai to keep it away from her. She wants to trust someone with herself again, she doesn't want to feel like her life has been nothing but these offenses against her.]

Gai... [She straightens up, barely an inch away from Gai's mouth. Something is keeping her from pushing on with it, though.] Is it... strange that I want you to touch me now? After all of the things we just said?

[Gai lets out a quiet little sound when her nose makes contact with the skin of his neck; though he tries to rein in the shiver that also results from that, he isn't quite successful, and the hand on her back stills for a moment before resuming its slow, repetitive motions. They both need this contact right now, he knows that much. Something loving, something kind, not something that's meant to hurt.

Which is why he isn't at all surprised by what she says next. Instead, he manages a crooked little smile at her, an attempt at being reassuring.]

No, I think that's the most normal thing either one of us has said yet.

[Elizabeth gives a little nod, still looking mildly concerned and dubious.] Alright.

[She attacks Gai's mouth, both hands on either side of his head. It isn't that she's turned on or desperate--she just wants them to take care of one another so badly and as quickly as possible. Warmth, closeness, touching that made him shudder like he had before.]

[But it's an urgent move for that sort of intimacy, and she's pressing all of her body against Gai's while her mouth kisses and bites and licks as much as she can. It's about comfort and caring, and she needs both right now like she needs to breathe.]

[That ferocity takes him by surprise for the barest moment before he's responding in kind, rough and sloppy and just needing, every bit as much as she is. His free arm snakes around her waist to pull her flush against him and just hold her there while he continues kissing her with a level of desperation that surprises even himself.

He needs this too, more than he thought he did. He needs her, because she understands why he needs this in the first place. No wonder they're drawn to each other. There's a level of unspoken understanding there that wouldn't be possible with anyone else.

His body shouldn't be responding this quickly, really. Logically, it should take more than just this to get him going, but as she continues to kiss him, it isn't long before he starts just sort of rocking his hips up against her, wanting more contact between them.]

[Thank God it wasn't just her.]

[Gai's response to her kissing urges her on, and she doesn't feel wrong for wanting this sort of closeness anymore. They both needed it, apparently, and the more they kissed the less Elizabeth felt like crying.]

[The first roll of Gai's hips pulls an aroused moan from her, his aim is very good today clearly. Elizabeth pushes away from Gai's chest and goes for the buttons on her shirt with such ardor that she might just pull one off entirely.]

[If wanting this is wrong, Gai most assuredly doesn't want to be right. He wants and needs it so much that the relief is almost overwhelming when that movement of his hips draws that moan from her and lets him know that she wants it every bit as much as he does.

There's the briefest sound of disappointment when she pulls away from him, but it dies on his lips when he realizes that she's trying to get her shirt off. And now comes the dilemma: help her with hers, or try to get his own off? It's not a hard decision; his is already half-unbuttoned, so it's quick work to get the rest of the buttons undone and then start wriggling out of it.]

[Elizabeth smiles, actually smiles, when Gai makes that little disappointed sound. She's quick to come back, though, and kisses him while she struggles with the rest of her buttons.]

[Eventually the shirt hits the floor, and Gai is faced with his dear friend The Corset... Can either of them muster the patience for it?]

We could... while I'm still in it, I can keep going.

[... oh no. Not that. Not the most effective killer of arousal he has ever encountered. Okay, he is DEFINITELY taking her to the store for some bras and panties, preferably later today.

But right now, he's just going to have a staredown with the Undergarment from Hell, as if somehow willing it to just disappear.]

I want to be able to touch you.

[Yes, he's aware that he sounds rather like a petulant child. He also doesn't care.]

[She shouldn't laugh, she really shouldn't. But after all they had talked about, Gai being miffed at her underwear was funny.]

[So she just laughs and brushes her nose against his.] Time me.

[And she reaches behind her and yanks at the laces faster than she ever has before. Eyes closed in concentration, she can almost see the eyelets as her fingers run over them.]

[About a minute later, Elizabeth pops the busk open and pushes it down to join her shirt, leaving her in her chemise.] You're going to have to lace me back into that you know.

[Truth be told, he looks more than a little ruffled from encountering his nemesis again. But he will not be deterred! He will face his foe head on and he will...

... let Elizabeth take it off. Yes. That sounds like an excellent plan to him. In the meantime, he'll just work on undoing his pants and pushing them down so he can get them off once she's done with... that thing.]

Who said anything about putting clothing back on?

You live here so I can't tell you what to do. But I have to go home and make dinner. Which means coming home clothed.

[She raises an eyebrow at him as she reseats herself in Gai's lap.] Unless you want to be running for your life in Luceti, too.

I'd say that's worth taking my chances for. I need a little danger in my life to keep things interesting.

[He's joking, of course, and before she can respond, he's moving his hands up to cup and fondle her breasts through the chemise. See, this is why he wanted to get that damn corset off.]

[She would say, 'You don't need danger from Booker DeWitt', but something about invoking Booker's name while Gai's hands were on her made Elizabeth want to recoil on a very visceral level. Weirdly enough.]

[So no comments on that. The chemise is thin enough that Elizabeth can feel the warmth of his hands through it, and she tips her head to the side in pleasure as she watches his hands move on her.]

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